This may be bad news for some of you, or maybe not…
Either way, I’ve decided to take a step back from YouTube for forever (or rather, for now). I haven’t uploaded anything on there (or here) in a while and if I’m honest with all of you, I really miss my sewing machine 🙁
Being a YouTuber adds a level of stress and anxiety to a hobby that’s supposed to be fun and relaxing. I loved teaching pattern drafting in front of the camera but there would be days where I just couldn’t output a video and I’d feel like I was failing people for not posting tutorials regularly enough.
Life gets busy and stressful and the first things to drop are things that just aren’t that important but still add to your stress, and that for me was YouTubing, and since I quit YouTubing, sewing followed because to me, they came hand-in-hand as a pair of stressors.
I love sewing, I look back at some of the things I’ve created and I’m proud of myself. Even some of my best work came from being under extreme pressure (and because of it, I’ve been featured on Seams and Scissors, yet again, for my Day and Night Dress). I’d love to go back but if I’m honest, I am facing some reluctance. I think it’s fear more than anything.
Life goes on
What I need to do is realise that there are no expectations for me to sew and that the world will still be standing if I take a break for a month, or even a year (like I have). I will still post on the blog and I’ll still produce tutorials because I love being helpful, but I think I’ll keep to my own pace and if life does get busy and stressful, sewing won’t be the first thing to go!
That being said, I really do appreciate all the love and support I still get even after my million year long hiatus, so I thank you all for your encouragement and understanding!